Mis-er-a-ble

That's the only word describing how I feel and have felt for the past 13 days. Obviously, that's why I haven't been around. And at this point, not sure when I'll feel good enough to be back on a regular basis.

I'm not really sure what's going on. I went to the doctor because I was having sinus pressure in my ears. And I had a busted blood vessel in my eye - apparently from the pressure. The pressure has caused me to be dizzy and nauseous, but no other symptoms. Plus, a really bad headache.

Then it got worse when I had an allergic reaction to the pain medication. (He didn't want me taking anything with asprin because of my eye.) That was a nightmare - made me so sick I could barely lift my head, and then the vomiting - I HATE to vomit.

They called me in something different, so I thought the worst was over. Well, maybe the worst, but I still feel like crap. My head hasn't stopped hurting for 13 days. The medication eases the pain, but doesn't make it go away.

I feel like I'm going crazy. I can only be up for a little bit a time and then I have to lie back down. I am doing the bare minimum around the house - just enough to keep the walls from caving in. But it's driving me nuts that I can't clean everything up like I want to. I can't even sit at the computer very long without feeling sick. So I'm very tired of this.

I got frustrated today when I called the doctor's office to see if I could get an appointment, and my doctor and his staff wasn't there today. They checked with another doctor who said he could call in something stronger. I said I didn't want something stronger, I want to find out what's causing the headaches and fix the problem! So now I'm waiting on a call from a neurologist, as they want to do a cat scan to see if they can figure out what the deal is.

I'm really sick of all this. I have been an emotional basket case. I just want to feel "normal" again. And when all I can do is lie around the house all day, I have a battle with my thoughts. These nasty worse-case scenario thoughts keep creeping in that I have to fight away. I've been praying a LOT. I just want to have some peace of mind, and to feel better!

For a couple days, I had started to feel a little better, but then it's like WHAM - right back to feeling horrible. I just want it to stop!

Thankfully my husband has been wonderful, taking care of everything he can. I am so thankful for him. He doesn't think he's done much, but he really has, and I'm glad he's here. But he has to be out of town next week, so I REALLY need to feel better!

OK, I really need to go lie down. Please keep my in your prayers, and hopefully I'll be back feeling better than ever very soon!